A Non-Gamer Enters the Chat: From Delulu to Employed

My new (and awesome) boss Lise casually added “play Palia” to my to-do list this week and I said “okay period,” like I’m not literally someone who’s never played a game in her life.

Shocking I know, I know!! But in my defense, it was probably because my mom genuinely thought video games would turn me into a psychopath….Anyways, I’m sure that begs the question for all of you reading this:

How the hell did I, the girl whose only exposure to gaming has been watching her brother rage at League of Legends for a decade, end up on the marketing team for Goblins???

Ohh it's a really wild story, it’s a genuinely unhinged sequence of events, and I fear you deserve the full lore. Let’s rewind!

Chapter 1: The Most chaotic job application of my Life

It all started when I was on holiday, being in my vacation-me energy. You know that version of yourself that you’re only when you are on vacation?? (People we met on a vacation movie mentioned, I know TikTok is going crazy over that movie now and I GET IT).

Well, I was having the time of my life on my vacation! I was also scrolling through Linkedin. I can see how having the time of my life and scrolling through Linkedin can’t connect AT ALL, I’m aware trust me, but let’s get going.

As I was scrolling through, I ran across a certain job posting post. It was definitely not typical and once I read and saw what was posted by Lise, I was OBSESSED!. Why? it gave that chaotic, real energy that I loveee! Here’s what the post said:

So I read it once, then again, then I started imagining myself working there, then I started panicking because I clearly was not qualified, then I started convincing myself I am actually very qualified, and then I started spiraling. (love my brain)

My brain went like: okay you’re not a publicist, or a gamer, BUT you are chaotic, and creative and funny and delusional in a productive way so maybe that’s the point?? And then and there I decided:

I MUST SEND AN EMAIL! I don’t think I will get this job, but I absolutely HAVE to do it, and be delulu (being delulu is a part of my personality at this point). They wanted someone with chaotic energy, oh they might have said that too soon.

I sat at the random coffee shop, and started writing an email like a maniac. I couldn’t stop, I was just writing anything that came to my mind. I truly entered my flow state. And if you think their job posting was chaotic, just look at what I’ve sent.

At some point, the email included sentences like:

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And somewhere in the middle of all that chaos, I tried to casually mention that I actually do have four years of marketing experience and that I’m not completely useless professionally.

When I finished, I stared at the email and thought: this is either the worst email ever written, or the best possible email I could have sent. There is no middle option here. I pressed send with full peace, because at that point the email had already left my body and become its own entity.

I didn’t expect to get an answer, and certainly not that fast. And it was the best email I’ve ever received. Like they actually loved my answer?? What is happening?

Chapter 2: the interview that felt illegal in corporate settings

So after she replied to my email like a normal person who was genuinely excited (still shocking), we scheduled the interview.

I was sitting in a café for it. What I did not anticipate was how confusing this entire conversation would look to the people sitting around me. I could literally see it on their faces, because one second I was talking about my work experience and projects, and the next second I was talking about astrology, then about internet culture, then about storytelling, then about life, then back to marketing again. It probably sounded like I was on a very intense call with a friend but at the same time also in a job interview. It was chaotic, as expected!

And I remember thinking during the call, not even after, but during it: wait… am I allowed to be like this in a job-related situation? Because this feels illegal in corporate environments. 

And when the call ended, instead of overanalyzing every sentence like I usually do, I just sat there with my coffee like… okay, whatever that was, I want more of it!

Chapter 3: Entering My Gaming Era

When I started working more and more with the team afterwards, it didn’t feel like some mask dropped after the interview. The energy stayed the same!!

That’s when I slowly realized that Goblins wasn’t this niche “gamers only” space I had imagined in my head. It was a space for people who feel at home online, who care about story, who care about connection, who care about expression. People who are a little bit chaotic, a little bit emotional, a little bit nerdy, a little bit too much, in the best way.

And once I understood that, my whole relationship with gaming shifted too. It stopped feeling like this intimidating world I didn’t belong to, and started feeling like “oh… this is actually just another way people tell stories, build worlds, and connect with each other.”

Which is exactly the kind of thing my brain loves. And that’s how we ended up here. 

-With me being told to try Palia.

-With me actually being excited about it. 

-With me accidentally becoming curious about gaming. 

-With me deciding to document the whole thing publicly.

 If you want to follow me on the journey and see what I think of certain games, how I probably fail at playing them, and have fun, follow thisscolumn!! Maybe we can even play together on Goblins, yeah??